Are Parties Really Fun When You Can't Eat Cake?

So...

Today was my mom's fiftieth birthday party, and it's the first time I've been out since I've had surgery.

I want to know if I'm alone... are parties as much fun if you can't eat the cake?

I kept watching people eat tonite, longing to taste potato chips, dip, barbecue, cake, ice cream, soda, and more...

I was sad alot of the time everyone was eating, I sat there eating my slice of cheese and lunch meat wondering if I made the right decision. I keep trying to live by the mantra of nothing tastes as good as thin feels but I wanted a piece of that friggin cake!!!!

I don't know what the alternative for comfort food is, I don't know if I have anything to comfort myself with at the moment, I'm trying to think this is worth it and I know eventually it will be, but will I ever feel normal again?

Can I go to a dinner party? I mean ever again, what about the holidays? Will they be this depressing?

I guess it's more to think about... I'm gonna go listen to people in stickam.

Peace out all... :?(

Weight Today: 466.2 Down: 34 lbs since surgery Down: 56 lbs since Jan 1st.